Divine Moments

You do not wish to know anything. You wish only to speak. That which you know, you ignore because it is inconvenient. That which you do not know, you invent.

So with all this new Zen shit I'm finding for myself, one of the biggest things for me has been letting myself have what I call "Divine Moments". This is where I don't push out the Divine from trying to be there for me. And by Divine, you can insert God, Yahweh, Jehovah, Allah, Shiva or any other of the many Gods and/or Goddesses names from throughout Human History. But I'm just gonna stick with saying 'Divine', so try and keep up!

You'll notice I said that I'm not pushing out the Divine when It tries to help me out. I say this due to the fact that I see morons around me always trying to keep the Divine at an arms length because whatever It is trying to give them or teach them, they just don't want to hear. And to me that's actually depressing. It seems that no matter what, these goovnayuk's are stuck in what they where brought up in. They leave no room for change or growth.
I do what I can to try and leave space for the Divine in my Life. Sure, there have been/are/will be times that the Divine is speaking to me and I'll just not want to hear it. But I realize that I need to hear it, to have it change me, make me grow. And there are many ways that It tries to speak to me. Through people, animals, events or just hearing someone you don't know say something and it clicks with you on something in your life. The Divine will find a way to come into your Life and guide you.

I believe that everything in this Universe is the Divine. Me, my Hubby, the computer I'm typing this on. The Internet. The Earth, Sun, planets. Everything. We are all part of the same Divine, even though we have different ways of interpreting It. To me, the Universe is alive, a living thing. Kinda like The Gaia Theory on super-steroids.

But as I was saying; I believe that the Divine tries to speak to people and they flat out ignore It because what It is trying to teach goes against everything these morons have been taught. Take for instance the whole "controversy" of Chaz Bono being out, proud and who he is. There are people who are full of venom and hate at him, calling him a 'she' and what not. What they don't see is that chance for growth that the Divine is trying to give them. By loving him for who he is, not what you think or want him to be.
I'm not saying that Chaz was put here for them or you, but he is in a position to be a force of change. And I don't get the hate directed at TransGendered people. All the talk of them "messing up what God created" is a joke to me. How many people go and have elective cosmetic surgery, thus "messing up what God created". Sex change operations are no different than a face lift or breast implants. So why aren't people going after people who have elective cosmetic surgery?

Even me writing this is the Divine reaching out to people.

I've gotten into arguments with people about the hate they have that they use God and The Bible to justify. Look, The Bible is a book, a guidebook, but a book. One written by Man, edited by Man, misinterpreted and mistranslated by Man and used for unspeakable acts by Man. Same with The Torah and The Qur'an. To use a book created and abused by Man, no matter how 'inspired by God', is wrong. How many things in these Holy Books do we not follow anymore? Because we've grown past them or that we now know are wrong?

The Divine is more complicated, strange, weird and simple than we can ever know. But It cares about us because we are a part of It. It will come into our lives to help us if we let It. We have got to stop being so involved in us that we ignore a chance for becoming more than what we are.

And I can hear y'all..."What's he going on about?" "Where's my Irate Wiccan Faggot and who's this cunt" Blah, blah, blah. I'm still me, but I'm finding new ways to get through this drek-fest that's life. Frakking deal!

I'm still gonna rant and be pissed, but as I said in my last post, I'm changing this blog a bit and adding more. I think it needs it, I need it. So frakking deal!

And that brings me to these modern Amerikan "Christian" Conservative Repuklicunts. These people are not American or Christian or even Conservative. They thrive on keeping the people of this country in fear and controllable. Take keeping people in fear of Islam by reminding us of 9/11 all the damn time! I love how the media, on 9/11, was all about "How can we make sure we never forget?" Easy, you won't let us! Islam isn't the enemy, it's these political assholes!
They aren't Christian because they have no Christ attributes! And if Jesus comes back, I know that these cunts would crucify him all over again because of what he preached/preaches. Help the poor, feed the hungry, love your enemy. These aren't modern Amerikan Christian Conservative Repuklicunt values or qualities! Keep the poor poor, let the hungry die from hunger and smite your enemy.

And then there's the Amerikan people. Look at the CNN Tea Party Debate when Ron Paul was asked if we should let an uninsured man die from his sickness. The crowd cheered after a guy yelled "YES"! What does that say about us? As a country and a people?
I work with people who say we shouldn't pay the way for the sick and uninsured. My, so not WWJD! It seems that these Amerikan Christians are anything but. I really see this country heading down the same path as Germany after The Great War. These "Conservative" Repuklicunts who are fueling the Tea Party are just the new Nazi's. Instead of being guided by a "blood religion of racial purity" they are being driven by their own version of Christianity which fits the agenda of their Corporation Controllers. And Demoncraps are more fiscally conservative than these Repuklicunts! History shows it.
To be a true Christian would mean taking care of those who go without and not complaining about it! Not, "Why should I pay for others to have a free ride?!" Seriously? Jesus weeps for you and your cold, hard heart. I love watching these cunts being a "good Christian" only when it suits them. Otherwise, it's "let them die!"

Either live up to the ideals of your Savior or just stop calling yourself a Christian. The Divine will keep trying to warm your heart, even when you ignore It. But that's your karma to deal with. I feel no pity for you when you eventually fail. I may be an Irate Wiccan Faggot asshole who hates everyone, but I help those who need it. Without reservation or thought of "what can I get out of this". Can you say the same?

Later fuckers...

The new and improved Irate Wiccan Faggot

Worry not frakkers, I'm not giving up on my trend of pisstivity. But I felt it's high time that there be more here than my lack of anger management. Don't get me wrong, the cathartic therapy of getting it all out is way cheaper than a goovnayuk mandavoshka listening to me and telling me all the drek that's wrong with me in German names. However, I've been racking my brain for other ways to get drek out that's not anger, but just as cathartic. And I think I've found it!

So here goes:

Lately, like the last year or so, I've been working on me. Emotionally and mentally. Trust, it's like rebuilding NOLA after Katrina...it's gonna take years! But I'm in a Zen space that I never thought I'd get to. Being a rage filled flesh bag of anger and piss does that.

I've been trying REALLY hard not to knee jerk react emotionally. Not easy for me, but I'm doing way better than I thought I could. Also, just as difficult, is to not let stress get to me. This is a big one for me. I've lived with stress and tension for so long that I don't know how to live without them. But I am getting there bit by bit.
Another thing for me is letting people be people, even if they piss me the frak off. Reason for this is that Karma gets people in the end. And this has been uber easy, surprisingly. Now, the stupidity that is modern people just rolls off my back like water. Don't get me wrong, there's still plenty that irks me and I'll not stop writing about it or noticing it. But I'm not letting it get to me as much.

Another really major thing is that I've really started to live by my Rules of Life. And the more I have, the more I've found that they are so fucking true. So here's a list;

1. Let your thoughts be your Sword and Shield.
2. Ignore adversity.
3. Abide by the Rules of Love.
4. Stand up for yourself.
5. Larger than life is just the right size.
6. Live life, don't let life live you.
7. Don't accept limits just because someone say they are so.
8. You promised trouble everyday of your life. Don't make no more trouble for you than you are already promise.
9. Be truthful. Forget tact, it's a form of lying.
10. Learn to love yourself and be by yourself. If you can't love yourself then how can you love someone? If you can't be by yourself and enjoy that time, how can you enjoy time with another person?
11. What you won't do (in life or in the bed), someone else will.
12. Forgive, no matter how much it hurts. Both yourself and others. It's for you, not the other person(s). If you can't forgive and let go, those people hold power over you until you can forgive and let go. Don't give people that kind of power!
13. Keep on loving, no matter how often your heart been broken.
14. There's a time to be cool. Then there's times to act a fool to get results.
15. Treat others how you want to be treated.
16. Treat others how they treat you.
17. Take responsibility for what you do and don't do.
18. There's always a choice. Not making a choice is still a choice.

Other rules I've come by recently and they hold as true;

1. Your teens are for figuring out who you think you are.
2. Your 20s are for realizing who you really are and for making mistakes. And 21 isn't grown. It's legal but it ain't grown.
3. Your 30s are when your bulb turn on and you start working on who you want to be. If your bulb doesn't come on, check your bulb!
4. Your 40s are when you stop lying to yourself and when you're finally grown.
5. After 50 you don't give foolishness any time.

Then there's the Rules for Friends and People;

1. Don't try and change people to what you want them to be. You'll always be disappointed.
2. If people want to walk out of your life, let them go.
3. Keep people in the category of a tree. Most people in the world are like leaves. Wind blows, they go this way. Wind blows again, they move another way. Watch out for them leaves!
The there's the branches and they're tricky. They seem strong, but they will trick you. A good, strong storm comes along and they'll disappoint you by breaking off and falling away.
Then there's the roots. They are few and far between, but they give life to the tree that's you. Keep them around!
Know the difference and remember it!
4. Learn that most people only come into your life for a season. Very few are Lifers. Don't get the two confused, you'll lose in the end.

So there's all these rules, but they have helped me to no end! And I love 'em for that. Like I said, I've gotten in a Zen space that I'm forever thankful for. I doubt I'll ever be in a state of not being pissed, but I can alter that by balancing pissed with calm and collect. A much sharper blade to be sure.

Look, I'm still growing and changing and I'm sure I'll become something more and different later. But for now this is where I am and I am thankful for it. That's something else I've learned;
I'm not mad at what Life has handed me or done to me, it was good for me. And Life hasn't done anything to me that I haven't let it do.

Zen space or not, I'm moving beyond the whole "Anger Mode". I'll miss it, but I'm better for moving on. It'll always be there, of that I'm more than sure. But I need to move on, no matter how much I'd like to fight it. It's good for me, it makes me better, more adaptive. And if that doesn't scare you frakkers, nothing will!

So that's it losers. Keep on loving to hate me or loving me cuz I'm the best thing to happen to you. And sorry if that's the case...not really.